Ramblings in Disguise

So, yeah, turns out she was avoiding me. For the pettiest of reasons that I’d rather not discuss here in hopes that my rage will subside and I’m able to truly allow her a “second chance”.

Turns out, when she decided to stop avoiding me, and I agreed to hang out and talk, when I picked her up, everything flooded back. She smiled hard, and I knew I still had her. Pretty much do, right in the palm of my hand, though this “relationship” is far from one-sided.

We’ll see how this continues. 

Ahem.

So. I met a girl about two months ago. And last month, we, through retarded circumstances which were both of our faults (85% mine), found out we were into each other romantically and from that point on everything was magical.


The end.


Actually, no. Everything was magical. Now, it really doesn’t seem like it. Not for lack of trying. We’re both busy people. She works graves, I do daytime things like school and whatnot, plus my job prevents me from doing much else.

We both ended up at the same place yesterday by happenstance. It was… tense. I was with my family and she was with her friends, and even though I met them already, I still felt… out of it. Though, her ex had joined them for the night, and although I told her that I actually wanted to meet the guy and it wouldn’t be awkward, it was. I didn’t meet him. There remained this gnawing feeling that she was done with me and saw him like she used to (which is very unlikely from what she’s told me of him).

Maybe I’m insecure because I haven’t liked someone like this in a while and this is pretty much new to me. And maybe I’m over-thinking this. I’m just frustrated, I guess.

So, that’s what’s been going on. Yay. 

Wow. My last post was months ago. I guess after my computer broke mysteriously, I kinda fell off the net and rely on my phone for EVERYGODDAMNTHING. I kinda feel like a shitty parent in a sense. Because I’m silly.

A lot of shit happened between then and now. Yeah. May share later. May.

http://ramblingsindisguise.tumblr.com/post/2822177837/you-know-that-instant-ping-when-god-lets-you

Remember this post? The couple in question broke up. Ha HA!

I’m a bastard. 

So, I just purchased a PS3 along with Borderlands and Fallout: New Vegas. Yay money!

The gravely singer is unique, who reminds me of Avenged Sevenfold’s Synyster Gates and the other vocalist kinda reminds me of Dallas Green of Alexisonfire and City & Colour fame. At least in this particular song.

So, yeah. I like this song, and this band ain’t bad. 

I just discussed the bacon-like properties of aborted fetuses with a close friend. I think I might actually be crazy. Because, honestly, there’s a line there and I crossed it pulling a wagon loaded full of hate crimes and erasers.

…Y’know, to erase the line I crossed.

Bear with me. 

No, seriously. There is a goddamn bear in my room and he’s wanting to share some salmon and berries and shit.

It’s 1 a.m., bear. Get out. 

Geez.